The Sailor's Stories

1046 Epilogue – The Sailor’s Awakening.

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The snow had stopped at least, but the cold was biting, and he once again thanked his lucky stars that he’d remembered his scarf, mittens and woolly hat on the way out his door that night. Standing there in the cold, hugging himself, to keep warm, he wondered again and again if this was such a good idea. It had appeared so to him, as he sat alone in his small downtown apartment that afternoon. He had no parents, they’d died when he was little, and he’d grown up in an orphanage. Consequently he really did have no one to share Christmas with.

It hadn’t always been that way, the year before he had spent the day with his boyfriend’s parents. That one hadn’t gone so well really, they didn’t know that his boyfriend was gay before hand, and it had really put a whole new spin on the family Christmas. To tell you the truth, the poor guy, though he was twenty six, had never really even had a steady guy for more than a few months, and was desperately craving the kind of companionship that that would provide. The kind of companionship that he was seeing through the window of the man he had come to admire so much.

It’s a shame really, and he knew that he was probably way off base…, but he just couldn’t help it…, he had to do something. That something was what had brought him out in the cold that night, braving the weather in his car, that the heater didn’t work in. What he wanted would spell the end of at least one career, maybe two, but he thought…, well…, even he didn’t really even know what he thought right then…, it was just too cold. He didn’t even know if the guy thought the same way he did…, he certainly seemed that way when they were together…, but did that really mean anything? What could he do though…, he had after all come all this way.

Stepping closer and closer, he could hear the sounds of laughter and merriment from within, and his heart yearned to be part of it, even if only for a few short moments. Above all else it was that, that finally pushed him the last few steps that led to the door, and his possible future…, be it good or bad. Even then though, at the last, he was still doubting himself, still doubting what he felt…, and what he thought the object of his desire would think. But in the end the cold won out, even as his mitten clad finger hovered ever so temptingly above the buzzer.

With a great sigh, that near threatened to freeze before it even left him, he lunged his finger forward sealing his fate. Instantly he had second, third and then even forth thoughts about what he was doing. He could still get away, and maybe those inside would think it was just kids or something. He was rapidly running out of time by then, but he’d made his decision anyway and was just starting to turn away when the door opened, in a breath of warm air.



Written by bigct/Octavius

May 30, 2010 at 17:45

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  1. You are claiming you are not as good in cliffhangers as Cody is, yet you put THIS as epilogue? No Octavius, if Cody is master of cliffhangers, as you wrote before, then you are definitely the king of cliffhangers.
    Anyway, it was great story and even though I still think you were too descriptive in some violent part for no reason, I still loved to read your story.
    But now, I have one complaint I must address you. As much descriptive as you were about these violent parts, you weren’t descriptive enough about some other part of your story and that is Corey and Carl’s relationship. I mean, other then that birthday party for twins, we didn’t even read in your story about Corey and Carl talk with each other. And that is not good.
    And the same can be told about Corey and JJ. Yes, it is obvious in the hospital Corey cares about JJ as much as Dale and Carl, but there is some missing part lost in the story, about why Corey is so close to JJ.
    It’s my opinion, but I think you should have been more descriptive about these relationship things. It just would have make your story even more interesting for your readers, because they would be able to relate even more to your characters and their relationship. Since you asked, that is what I would like to read in next book.
    And also, I want to finally see Cam to realize what his sexuality is, and find life partner. I think there is hint about this in this epilogue, but I am not sure where this will lead in future.
    Oh, and please, more about JJ. I hope he’ll find boyfriend too and the sooner the better, because it may be hard for him seeing not only his sister with Corey, but also Dale and Carl with each other and in some extent even his parents with each other.
    Anyway, thank you for good story and I am definitely looking forward for next book.


    May 31, 2010 at 08:48

  2. First, Octavius, Let me thank you for your first and I hope not last, story. I found it so affirmative and uplifting in the love it expresses towards family, friends, and humanity. Yes, there were some ugly moments, in it, but such is life. What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger.Take a needed rest but know that this fan will be waiting to read your next missives. You are able to put to pen, the aggravation of intolerance, the love and acceptance of alternate lifestyles and the wisdom to figure out whats important in life. I think I would like to see more development in the boys personal lives, their thoughts and actions as they mature. Just a thought. Meanwhile Blessings to you and yours.


    May 31, 2010 at 15:56

  3. Sounds more like a prolog than an epilogue, C.T. No matter. Me thinks this is one of your best chapters as far as style goes. I would like to see this direction continue. Who knows, with the way Obama is trying to change the military, it may not lead to a carreer change after all. Listen to your critics; good and bad but understand it’s your story to tell. Both Horn and Dave have left you some good comments. Take care!


    May 31, 2010 at 16:35

  4. Excellent story, well written even if a bit glib at times. Of course we would like to know more about the boys and their side of the stories but unless you change the style from first person you can only relate Cam’s viewpoint. Having done so kn the ‘epilogue’ you can now introduce the boys own words too. I think this would be an interesting development. Anyway good luck and thank you – I have much enjoyed Reading your work. S


    May 31, 2010 at 21:22

  5. Well CT I’m with Dawngreeter and hoping he is right that it maybe a prolog.It may actually wipe away the sadness exressed in my comment on chapter 45.
    Danny – it sounds like there may be some additional happiness about to enter Cams life – here’s hoping.
    Regards Stef


    June 1, 2010 at 20:56

  6. I read the last two chapters not long after they were posted and after reading chapter 45, read chapter 46 with disbelief, then some silent and not so silent words were said. I should have realised that no writer can keep a story going indefinitely and there would have to be a break at some point (after all the clues were there if I had been looking for them). Please notice I use the work break and not end as, like others have said, I really do hope you continue the story in the future.
    I have noticed that you have sought feedback, as if you feel sometimes that the story is not as good as others, not sure what you are referring to, but please take it from an avid reader that I was hooked from the moment I found the site and spent two days catching up and then having to wait while you posted chapters was hell (maybe overstating but hopefully you get my point).
    I really do hope you continue this at sometime in the not too distant future, but if you have any more stories out there, or can recommend, in the mean time, I would be grateful.
    Sorry for length but I am relatively new to this as this is only my second posting to a blog. Yours in appreciation EG


    June 2, 2010 at 03:42

  7. Ok, first off, YOU BASTARD! These cliffhangers are killing me. And really, as an epilogue? That’s just mean. Second, I LOVED this book. Every time I would read a chapter, I’d get swept up into the emotion and get away for a little bit. I remember, months ago, finding this story from Cody. You were about eight or ten chapters in if I remember correctly. I took a look around, and became mildly interested. Then I read the first chapter, and I stayed up into the wee hours of the morning reading the rest (I started reading around 2 am, so it wasn’t THAT long, but enough to ruin my sleep). From that first chapter I was addicted. I would check back every day for a new chapter, and my heart would jump every time there was one. I cannot thank you enough for this story. This, Cody’s, and T’s are my drugs, and I’ve been really riding your high the best lately. I really hope you decide to write another book, and soon, so I can follow along on this wonderful journey full of wonderful people. I can’t really think of anything to add. You do everything so perfect, I know however you write the story will be amazing, and just how it should be told. Take a rest, but come back really really soon! I NEED MY FIX!

    Thank you for everything you do.
    Your friend,


    P.S. I can’t believe I just wrote all of that on my phone. My fingers hurt! How does G do this all the time?


    June 2, 2010 at 19:52

  8. CT

    Awsome read, I started yesterday and read the whole lot in about 20 hours. I just couldn’t stop.

    I have to tell you about a story I read years ago. It was a book by Wilbur Smith titled Eye of the tiger. He made the main character, a pilot, come to life in my imagination. He painted a picture with his words and the image in my mind was so vivid I actually started to love this charcter. Then, he, the writer, destroyed that image with a firey hell. I was devistated. I still read the story but was so saddened by it I never read another novel for many many years. I think I was about 13 or 14 years old at the time.

    This story had me taken in to that same level. I got so engrossed in your main character I was truelly seeing him as real. Then , when he did that thing at the school It broke my heart.

    Looks like I’m destined to only ever read a few stories like this in my life time, but I’m so glad I read this one. Cheers CT….

    Take care


    June 4, 2010 at 01:49

    • Hey Lauklin. You may want to check out this sight. The sight has been around for some time but not alot of people know about it. You’ll love the characters and the stories. Take care.


      June 4, 2010 at 11:33

      • Thanks Dawngreeter – I hope you don’t mind but I just checked out your link – looks very promising – def be going back for a read.
        Regards Stef
        ps love the handel you have chosen – for 4 months of the year I sit up with the mares and either supervise and or help them during the foaling time – have greeted many a dawn and what a great time of the day.


        June 4, 2010 at 17:40

  9. Well CT. Are you seeing what I said a long time ago about you not being a professional writer? You have touched a nerve with alot of people here in a short time. Lauklin, your kind words are just what CT needs to hear. All writers need some kind of feed back whether positive or not.


    June 4, 2010 at 11:21

  10. Hey dawngreeter, thanks for the link, I’ll check that over when I get the chance. I agree that writers on here need some feedback, good or bad, I enjoyed CT’s story and others I have read on here.

    I would hope that new writers don’t give up after a few chapters, It can take a while before you get feedback, so keep going and be patient.

    Take care all


    June 9, 2010 at 13:34

  11. Thanks for sharing your creative talents with us CT. I thoroughly enjoyed reading this story. Vern


    July 10, 2011 at 06:26

  12. 🙂 🙂 🙂


    May 9, 2012 at 07:42

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